My Soft Blue Wind...
Every night when the wind starts singing
When everyone's asleep
Soft sobbing pierces through the air
Just so lonely, so weak
I opened my heart
To those I could trust
I shared my secrets with
The friends I thought would last
But what did I get
Foolishly in return?
A thousand eyes staring
A loss of care and concern?
From that day onwards
I sealed my heart
In my land of winds,
Not even ice can touch
In the darkness I cried
The fight with loneliness I lost
Till the soft blue wind came knocking
Sword and shield crossed
And there he stood
That confidence, that loyalty
Or was it because of the freezing wind?
His self sacrificial, I feel deeply in love with
Though he merely listened
Like he didn't really care
His concerns were like showers
My heart creased to tear
He was like the blue wind
The soft knock on my heart
He was like the night sky
With stars I could touch
He was like the ocean
Beauty laid deep within
He was like the angel
Sent to rescue me
He was the best I've ever seen
A guy who listens,
A guy who thinks
He was the most charming
Any wind would
Break under him
He was the most amazing
Crusader's loyalty,
I have to admit
He was the sweetest I've ever seen
His long sword and
The tune he sings.
Now every time I feel the wind
The soft blue wind in my heart
I envy the girl whom for her he sings
Though never forgotten the star I reached.
foR that loyalty
and the heart and sOul sacrifise
Really.. touched my heart.
i Long to fly with you...
The smile on your face
Always makes my day
Tired as i am
My spirits will never sway
But when did that kind smile
Turn into a lonely and sad one?
When did the caring you
Turn into someone so far?
Day by day you go further away
Like a century away
I tried to smile at you
It seems it just made you feel blue
Time to close the light
Time to end the fight
Time to say goodbye
Time to get upright
Did i really hurt you that much?
Am i really the cause of your sadness?
Did i make the right choice,
Of walking into your life?
Forgetting is not big deal
You just have to forget the love you feel
Worrying is just an extra deal
Actually there's nothing you feel
You say you're not sad
You're happy instead
But what about those who care about you?
Your classmates, your pals
Will you make them hurt with you?
You spread your wings
You flew up high
You soar above the skies
And brought hope to my life
But your wings so broad
You fly so high
Its just so hard
To fly with you
I longed to fly with you..
i Tried...
Since i stepped into the light
Free as wind i tried to fly
But her smile and care so far away
Tried my best but upset my day
Im always the one at the lonely side
Trying to find someone to lean on
Was my choice right? i always asked
In the end perhaps i ought to die
I tried to be Cute
Smile my way like everything's fine
But what did i get?
People think im crazy
People think ima freak
People think im acting it all out
People think i cannot be trusted
Even she abandoned me
Left me alone, behind
Beside her too many friends stand
Im just this speck of sand.
I tried to be Nice
Waited aside till the end of time
But what did i get?
People think i've nothing to do
People think i've smth in mind
People think im a useless piece of shyt
People just left me alone to cry
Even she left me searching
For that flash of wings
In the midst of thousand people
in the end, left alone to cry
I tried to be Silent
Held back my heart though it longed for you
But what did i get?
People think im insane
People think im sick in the brain
People think i need a counciller
People think i need to rest
Even she somewhat worried for me
Send me to councilling though i didnt need it
Making me feel like lunatic
Tried to fly yet fell like winds
I tried to run away
Tried to act as though i didnt care
But what did i do?
I stayed behind
I waited with time
I tried to fly
just to be with you
But what did i get?
What.. did i get?
For the stars i've reached are solely mine
Solely, only, mine..
I may seem crazy
Selfish, full of myself
hurting others as well
But ever thought
why am i so protective?
What is mine..
I've always tried to keep
But these people called my friends
Whom i trusted so much
Have to take it away from me
I tried to keep
But it just slipps
further and further
away from me..
Im always alone
I only have the wind
To accompany me
It is here when i need it
When i fell
When im hurt
When im down
When im dying..
Stars
My stars
They shine on me from afar..
Though they are hidding
They're always there
Be it when i am down
When i fear, when i cry
When the whole world thinks i ought to die
When everyone abandoned me here
When everyone left me in pools of tears
When everyone left me shreds of painfull memories
When i tried to forgot but just cant do it
Arukas, Krulas, Eygias
Heavenly Beings who shine over all
Desend upon us now as i guide you
Baruel, Zaluel, Brozwel,
Guide us through the night of stormy stars
Open the gates to the land of evil
To the land of no return
To the Forgotten capital, Alhazred,
Let me forget about the pain and hurt
Let everyone forget that i used to be here
Let me forget the lonelinesss
Let me give up and wallow in self emptiness
Those happy days we've had
those happy times we've shared
Has already melted
Into the darkness, silently disappeared
And yet, you stole my time
my heart and all sound
Those promises you've made
Do they still stand till now?
I dont want to stay alone
In the bitter memories
But time just
Cannot wait for me
I just wish to be myself
With the silent Wind
Let it help me
Forget those that you promised..
Winds... Just, me...
Winds.
my heart never creased to pain
though as must as i wanted,
the pain never end,
listen to my feelings of hurts,
the secret messages
at the bottom of my heart.
Band.
where my best times were spent,
where my feelings were vent.
but why has my heaven,
become so unfair and uneven?
Band.
where friends were made,
where i thought i found fate.
but why has my friends now turn foes,
and practices now seem like haunting ghosts?
Class.
where i used to have fun,
where i can talk about anything under the sun.
but now why do i fear my classmates,
those i thought would lead my fate?
Friends.
i used to be able to joke,
and they gave me courage, made me hope.
but why now i fear my every word,
fear that i'll lose my friends, lose my herd?
Wings.
the caring sister i had,
to her, no jokes i didnt crack,
no secrets not shared.
but why do i seem to be hurting her,
the more she tried shielding me from fear?
Raven.
the silent helper, my fears he creased,
though far apart, he's always guarding me.
but why do i seem to be hinting him
stay away from me, my words seem to sing
Christ.
a friend, a listener,
with her i grew stronger.
though at times she's hurt with my words,
she still can smile and say it didnt hurt.
Angels.
people say they're everywhere,
people say they're always
shielding you with care.
but why do they seem so far away,
they're always not here to make my day?
Devils.
people say they're evil,
people say they bring nothing but death.
but why do they seem to be caring for me,
the way angels used to be?
Me.
i used to think i was the wind,
as carefree as i am, like the songs i sing.
but now every word said
would affect everyone, even those i cared.
i used to think it doesnt hurt to cry,
because when i cry no one's there to mind.
but now with all those people who care,
i cant even cry because my sadness they share.
i used to think im just a lonely kid,
waiting for angels, bring the care i need.
but now with friends like Raven and Wings,
angels can wait, for them i sing.
i used to think band was my everything,
and everytime band will be
carefree like flying.
but since i stepped into this new band,
everything has to change,
being carefree have to end.
i used to think class is
a place for fun,
joke around and play in the sun.
but now class is a place of shyt.
listening to people scream,
i just want to sleep.
Listen to the wind,
hear her sing.
with words like soft touch,
listen to the words from her heart.
To Wings.
im sorry i wasnt there with you
im sorry to hurt you, making you feel blue.
i never meant to hurt you like this
hope im still in your heart,
you'll still hear me sing.
To Raven.
thankyyou for always being there,
sorry for not giving you care.
hope you'll still stay with me,
my soft blue wind, my angel you'll be.
To Christ.
she just standing beside me,
laughing at me as i
cry my heart out writing this.
she's always the one who truly
understands me,
the one in my heart,
my best guardian she'll be.
To Wind.
cheer up! its not the end of world,
you've got the friends,
willing to be with you till the end.
put the spunk back in you, girl,
with your singing you can conqure the world.
be the best that you can be,
the world is your to listen to you sing.
To winds, be the best you can be ;D
Eternity...
You promised her Eternity
With love for her as deep as the sea
You promised her eternity
With hopes for her more than i could wish
A cruel change of fate it seem
Your days with her were like a dream
A dream that only lasted the night
Bringing the end as dawn turns bright
Rain, falls, as her shadow leaves.
Tears dissolve in the gentle breeze
A devil's gift always comes with a prize
A kiss as a present for the love that dies
Through the pain you lost and gain
First loves don't last, they won't reach the end
You loved her so dearly, you gave her so much
In return she leaves, with that same soft touch
Rejected once, you know the pain
Yet my pride and honour you slain
Unloved, i only wanted care and concern
Yet you sent back my love, broken but returned
Does it really take Eternity
To prove how much you mean to me?
Dedications to Kage...
In a night of sorrow, selfless gain,
The princess of power, forcefully slain
The gathering of love brings pride and pain
While fear of loss brings the guild to main
Darkness rise with the growth of age
Power unites the formation of sage
Fear of pain brings a turn of page
Freedom comes with the birth of Kage
Alone he stood in the name of Knight
He sought to seek a new, greater height
His appearance brought about the era of light
On his shoulders we grew, taking flight
Fame and glory we asked for not
Skill is all we seeked to sought
Peace and trust we can forget not
In this small family, together we fought
Although out of our wishes
were fortune and fame
They came as no surprise,
we're got skills in the game
Pro as we are, they'll remember our name
We're all in Kage, the guild ever the same
Questions for Him...
As the spring winds creased and the rivers flow
Your answers, i clearly know
Yet this pride and broken heart of mine
Refused, to believe so
My nights of pain and despair, afterall
Is nothing, compared to your fall
So why does my heart still hurt at the sight
Of this love, for her, you call?
Will we get together to watch the stars
With you smiling by my side?
Will you hold my hand and let me feel
Your heartbeat beside me at night?
Will i have another chance to prove to you
That you mean a lot to me?
That i'd rather give up on everything
Just to have you in my dreams?
Will you ever ever love me at all
Like you've never ever did before?
Will you look inside my eyes to see
The shadow of my love, so tall?
Perhaps time after time has shown
I'm destined to walk alone
But i long for you to be with me
To finally call you my own
Untitled...
I've seen too many love rewinds
Felt how two hearts could lose and find
I've always been the third extra
But i've learnt quite a bit, i've came quite far
Love is such a strange mystic
Simple sweet, yet so drastic
Even the brillian could fall in its traps
No one could escape its deceiving wraps
When the love first broke you vowed to me
Your love has died, and now you see
You held me tight, but all i felt
Was the emptiness your regret spelt
First loves has this lasting spell
Which lingers after the love has fell
I could see in your eyes, the shadow of her
You're like her doll, foolish lover
Could i hold onto you? no i cant
Its like she's your need and you're her want
Could you just forget? i really doubt
After all thats what love's about
And so now you're back by her side
All love and sweet, you dont have to hide
Even if you're not, it still doesnt change
The love you long is still that strange
Could you just forget? i really doubt
After all, thats what love's about..
Devil's falling Sand...
I hope you know, this pain i feel
Is not so simple, as love reveal
I had my chance, i screwed it bad
Now im trapped, and now you're sad
Stop the tears ; you were my superstar..
You let me feel, a love so true
But im afraid i gave, nothing to you
Lock this love, and reserve it for
That girl out there, who deserves it more
Hear my voice ; you're away too far..
Give me a smile, i can't be your dear
Shed no tears, i can still be here
I can't hold your hand, but i hope you know
I can't be with you, im far too low
Feel no regret ; im not merely wild..
Im cold, im cruel, and yes im crude
Ima bastard, i should die, and thats not rude
Face it, you know it, you're too good for me
There'll be someone better, one day you'll see
Look back no more ; im the devil's child..
Your heart so wide ; you were my sky..
(stop the tears ; you were my superstar..)
You deserve better ; so please don't cry..
(Hear my voice ; you're away too far..)
Guess i could not ; hold your hand..
(Feel no regret ; im not merely wild..)
Just let me go ; like falling sand..
(Look back no more ; im the devil's child..)
Iname you, Winds.
Blue for the skies and blue for the sea
Blue for dreams and fantasy
Blue shows the emoness deep within
Blue is one colour of the Wind
Red for the colour of devil's child
Red for the thirst and lust so wild
Red shows the desire within you sing
Red is one colour of the Wind
Yellow for that field where flowers bloom
Yellow so pure it shadows gloom
Yellow shows the joy inside they ring
Yellow is one colour of the Wind
Green for the envy and hate so strong
Green for hatred hidden long
Green for that anger your heart kept in
Green is one colour of the Wind
Blue, Red, Yellow and Green
Gold, Purple, and even Pink
Shades of colours of the Wind
Different emotions; shared feeling
In your heart i see your rise and fall
In your eyes i feel that girl so small
Inside you, i hear, the colour sings
From today, Hereby, I name you, Winds.
One. Ohh. First.
Minutes before winter's spring
You took my hand, we walked and sing
On the hill's top, we heard the wind
For eternity, our chimes will ring
That was the one.ohh.first time
You kissed my cheeks
Days before last summer's fall
You woke me up, your morning call
You took my hand, we walked the hall
For eternity, i'll be your doll
That was the one.ohh.first time
You held my hand
Seconds after winter's night
I saw alone, the stars so bright
On that hill's top, i felt so light
For eternity, i'll take the flight
That was the one.ohh.first time
You walked away
Months after last summer's storm
I felt no life, i'd lost my form
You said those words, you're just a worm
For eternity, i'll leave that dorm
That was the one.ohh.first time
You said goodbye
We shared too many one.ohh.first
We've being thru all the laughs and burst
But things cannt all be good and just
You left me hungry, scarred and thirst
That was the one.ohh.first time
You broke my love
Dedications to Sempai...
I missed my life, the song it sings
I missed my dreams, it brew the winds
I missed my joy, the shadowed me
I missed my pain, the deepest sea
I first met you, in that field so green
You laid asleep, a look so serene
I sat down beside, and felt you grin
You shouldered me, a new place to lean
You walked right in, to my simple life
I felt honoured, you chose to be mine
You took that step, and grant me a dance
I held your hand, my only one chance
Before this i ran, in snow so cold
Before this i cried, i cannot hold
Before this i hoped, but no one's there
Before this i lost, the love you share
I think i know, your gentle touch
I thought i feel, you lightly nudge
I want to keep, your tender care
I wish i wont, lose you back there
Your held my hand, the only seal
You know that love we seek to feel
You took me in, and freed my strings
You wont let go, you'll be my dreams
Hold my dreams, and touch my fear
Be my (shinigami), and shine me, dear..
Hall of Fame...
I walked a hall, a great long hall,
My blood still calls, a silent call.
I've pushed opened, the many doors,
My blood still paints, the blood stained floors.
I saw eclipse, a crystal shore,
I saw the pain, my loves it tore.
I saw your face, it stood out raw,
I saw your love, the unseen law.
Let twilight go, my love is deep,
Walk back away, i will not weep.
You wont stay here, it matters not,
So take your leave, and let me rot.
I still have those, much many doors,
I'll drag my soul, along these floors.
I'll open up, to new surprise,
I wont linger, new moon shall rise.
You may not want, a fool like me,
But rest assured, just let me be.
I'll find my winds, and leave your fawn,
I'll find my knight, thus breaking dawn.
Hall of Shame...
I still search, for a trace,
In your far away heart.
I still hope, in your grace,
For a role in my part.
I still look, at your site,
Where your love for her screams.
I still fly, like a kite,
On those dangerous strings.
In my heart, you have left,
That hurtful paragraph.
In my heart, I am deaf,
But to your charming laugh.
In my heart, I still hope,
You will look back at me.
In my heart, I cannt cope,
Please don't leave me to be.
In your heart, locked inside,
Is that love that I long.
In your heart, you decide,
It's reserved, like a song.
In your heart, you have love,
But it's never for me.
In your heart, you have hate,
Only for me to see.
I will walk, down the hall,
The famous hall of Shame.
I will feel, down the wall,
For the sharpest defame.
I will see, through your eyes,
The pity and hating.
I will find, through the vines,
My last happy ending.
Be my Princess...
I've walked time through, the dusk and day,
I've seen time die, and dust away.
I've walked through storms, the snow and rain,
I've felt the cold, the bitter pain.
It takes time to hrut a love so far,
It takes love to heal a loveless scar.
I've abandoned dreams and fantasy,
Or so I thought they'll never be.
Our paths first crossed, that faithful dawn.
I first saw you, that graceful swan.
You bowed and blush, a cheery pink,
I took your hand, our foremost link.
You held me through the darkest age,
You guide me out, my lovely mage.
You held my hand and raised my frown,
And rescued me just as i drown.
It must be true, this destiny.
The two of us were meant to be.
You brought me joy, a song to ring,
Be my princess, for you i'll sing.
The Fourteen Angel...
Beneath the Pale moonlight,
A fallen angel sleeps.
Her wings are barely healed,
They're beautiful but weak.
Her tears reflected sorrow,
As silent as she weeps.
Her heart is left, broken,
The blood drips as it leak.
Her hair, a silver fountain,
An endless flow of dreams.
Her eyes, like new moon rising,
The darkest realm it seems.
Her heart, an ancient fire,
Tho it no longer beats.
Her soul, like thy empire,
The lone theater seats.
